Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
trust me.
To my lovely DG sisters,
I just wanted to write to you and let you know how much I truly appreciate each and every one of you. I know things are different in the house these days, but that doesn’t change how much I love all of you. DG has changed my life completely. I’m a completely different person than I was two years ago. I’ve grown up a lot and become a better person and that’s all thanks to the example you all set for me. I look up to all of you, even the younger girls. You are such great role models for me and the best friends I could ask for. You’ve all seen me at my best and my worst and I am so fortunate to have you in my life. This summer was the best and worst of my life. Things happened that I don’t know how I would’ve gotten through without you all there to pick me back up and I just wanted to thank you. In addition to be there for my bad moments, you were the ones creating the good memories. I know a lot of things have happened recently, but I don’t know what I’d do if I could no longer call one of you my sisters. We need to things back to how they were during pledgeship. I can’t remember a happier time in my life and DG has never been better than it was then. Everyone has things they need to work on, but I have faith in us and I know if we do, our sisterhood will grow even stronger and be unbreakable. Stick it out and I know this will all be worth it. I love you guys more than you can imagine. ITB <3
I just wanted to write to you and let you know how much I truly appreciate each and every one of you. I know things are different in the house these days, but that doesn’t change how much I love all of you. DG has changed my life completely. I’m a completely different person than I was two years ago. I’ve grown up a lot and become a better person and that’s all thanks to the example you all set for me. I look up to all of you, even the younger girls. You are such great role models for me and the best friends I could ask for. You’ve all seen me at my best and my worst and I am so fortunate to have you in my life. This summer was the best and worst of my life. Things happened that I don’t know how I would’ve gotten through without you all there to pick me back up and I just wanted to thank you. In addition to be there for my bad moments, you were the ones creating the good memories. I know a lot of things have happened recently, but I don’t know what I’d do if I could no longer call one of you my sisters. We need to things back to how they were during pledgeship. I can’t remember a happier time in my life and DG has never been better than it was then. Everyone has things they need to work on, but I have faith in us and I know if we do, our sisterhood will grow even stronger and be unbreakable. Stick it out and I know this will all be worth it. I love you guys more than you can imagine. ITB <3
Thursday, September 29, 2011
a girl can dream, right?
If there's something I'm particularly bad about, it's dwelling on the past. Far too often I catch myself looking back on the past, thinking about everything that went wrong or that I could have done differently or, at times, even things I regret. I'm always the happy, optimistic one in the group but sometimes I really just wish life had a rewind button and that I could give things a second shot with the knowledge I have obtained. This is something that has been going on all night and I don't know why I can't shake the thoughts out of my head, but I just keep thinking about it.
It all started at the Taylor Swift concert, which might I add, was incredible; one of the best concerts I've ever been to. I'm not sure how she does it, but she sums up my life to a t. Yeah, she sings about a lot of general topics and everyone feels like they can relate to her. But the way my life relates is insane: it literally is word for word, my life, even the dates in the songs. Marissa understands what I mean. In the song "I'd Lie," everything Taylor mentions describes my ex. He loves to argue, he's born on the 17th, his sisters are both beautiful, he has his dad's bright blue eyes, and he won't tell anyone but he can play the guitar. Tonight at the concert, I found myself constantly thinking about a certain boy. He wanted to go to the concert and had been talking about it forever but I guess he didn't end up getting a ticket. So, of course, I was already thinking about him for that reason. But as she started playing, I started to relate more and more of the songs to him. (I wish I could stop myself from doing that, but hey, I'm a girl. It's what we do best.) One song in particular really hit me: "Last Kiss." Yeah, of course I'd thought about it before, but I hadn't really listened to the words as closely as I did tonight. The way this song related was weirdly similar but much more personal than the last. "The words that you whispered for just us to know, you told me you loved me so why did you go away." There was a time we were talking and he told me he was falling for me. "That July 9th, the beat of your heart - it jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms." July 9th was the last AMAZING night we had. Sure, there were good nights after that, but that is the last distinct one that sticks out in my mind. "Now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes." A dumb example, but he always lets me borrow his clothes if I'm cold or for whatever reason need something. "All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss." I think that one is self-explanatory. "Never imagined we'd end like this." Also, pretty self-explanatory. "I do remember the swing of your step, the life of the party you're showin off again, and I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in." Dancing in the basement at the parties. "How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of sayin somethin. There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions." Again, self-explanatory. "So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep." Okay, that sounds creepy. Not what I mean. More along the lines of just its more convenient to watch your life through pictures than in person now. "And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are." We have the same friends, so naturally we're all still gonna hang out and you'll get brought up in conversation here and there. "And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day, and something reminds you you wish you had stayed." Ugh, if only. "You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind." Once again, I feel that this is pretty self-explanatory.
It was just bizarre to me how similar my life was to this song. It took everything I had in me not to cry while she was singing it. But this was not my point in blogging tonight. My point is just that I miss how things used to be. Having our new pledges reminds me of how much I loved and miss pledgeship. It was literally the best time of my entire life. Everything was so new and fresh. I was meeting and getting to know all of my best friends. There was always something exciting to do and new things to experience. I was so happy and I was perfectly content with my life. Why can't things go back to how they were? I wish I could express to the new members how much they really do need to appreciate this time and enjoy every minute of it. I'm not saying it gets bad by any means, but there is nothing better than your semester during pledgeship. I wish I could go back and relive every moment of it and then continue on and relive the rest of the past year. I know so much more than I did before and there are so many things that I would have done differently now that I know the outcome. Maybe I'd be happier.
I know I really need to stop doing this. I need to stop thinking on the past and rather focus on what's ahead of me and make the best of that. But it's just been one of those nights.
It all started at the Taylor Swift concert, which might I add, was incredible; one of the best concerts I've ever been to. I'm not sure how she does it, but she sums up my life to a t. Yeah, she sings about a lot of general topics and everyone feels like they can relate to her. But the way my life relates is insane: it literally is word for word, my life, even the dates in the songs. Marissa understands what I mean. In the song "I'd Lie," everything Taylor mentions describes my ex. He loves to argue, he's born on the 17th, his sisters are both beautiful, he has his dad's bright blue eyes, and he won't tell anyone but he can play the guitar. Tonight at the concert, I found myself constantly thinking about a certain boy. He wanted to go to the concert and had been talking about it forever but I guess he didn't end up getting a ticket. So, of course, I was already thinking about him for that reason. But as she started playing, I started to relate more and more of the songs to him. (I wish I could stop myself from doing that, but hey, I'm a girl. It's what we do best.) One song in particular really hit me: "Last Kiss." Yeah, of course I'd thought about it before, but I hadn't really listened to the words as closely as I did tonight. The way this song related was weirdly similar but much more personal than the last. "The words that you whispered for just us to know, you told me you loved me so why did you go away." There was a time we were talking and he told me he was falling for me. "That July 9th, the beat of your heart - it jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms." July 9th was the last AMAZING night we had. Sure, there were good nights after that, but that is the last distinct one that sticks out in my mind. "Now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes." A dumb example, but he always lets me borrow his clothes if I'm cold or for whatever reason need something. "All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss." I think that one is self-explanatory. "Never imagined we'd end like this." Also, pretty self-explanatory. "I do remember the swing of your step, the life of the party you're showin off again, and I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in." Dancing in the basement at the parties. "How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of sayin somethin. There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions." Again, self-explanatory. "So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep." Okay, that sounds creepy. Not what I mean. More along the lines of just its more convenient to watch your life through pictures than in person now. "And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are." We have the same friends, so naturally we're all still gonna hang out and you'll get brought up in conversation here and there. "And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day, and something reminds you you wish you had stayed." Ugh, if only. "You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind." Once again, I feel that this is pretty self-explanatory.
It was just bizarre to me how similar my life was to this song. It took everything I had in me not to cry while she was singing it. But this was not my point in blogging tonight. My point is just that I miss how things used to be. Having our new pledges reminds me of how much I loved and miss pledgeship. It was literally the best time of my entire life. Everything was so new and fresh. I was meeting and getting to know all of my best friends. There was always something exciting to do and new things to experience. I was so happy and I was perfectly content with my life. Why can't things go back to how they were? I wish I could express to the new members how much they really do need to appreciate this time and enjoy every minute of it. I'm not saying it gets bad by any means, but there is nothing better than your semester during pledgeship. I wish I could go back and relive every moment of it and then continue on and relive the rest of the past year. I know so much more than I did before and there are so many things that I would have done differently now that I know the outcome. Maybe I'd be happier.
I know I really need to stop doing this. I need to stop thinking on the past and rather focus on what's ahead of me and make the best of that. But it's just been one of those nights.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
harder than easy
I hate that you call me babe. I hate that you tell me how beautiful I look. I hate that you grab my hand and pull me in tight and don't let go. I hate how normal things are between us. I hate that you are with her. I hate that I still want you so badly. I hate that I let myself get like this. I hate that I can't get over you. But most of all, I hate that I love you.
time for change
Summer's over, which can only mean one thing: RECRUITMENT
With school starting, DG is back in session and I couldn't be more excited! So much work has been put in to recruitment over the summer and I can't wait to see our hard work pay off! I thought I'd give my top reasons why I love DG so much :)
With school starting, DG is back in session and I couldn't be more excited! So much work has been put in to recruitment over the summer and I can't wait to see our hard work pay off! I thought I'd give my top reasons why I love DG so much :)
7. I always look for the DG house on other campuses when I am traveling. It’s really fun to see how different other chapters are and meet the girls I call my national sisters and share the amazing bond of sisterhood with them.
6. I get to continue my family’s legacy. My mom, a few of her sisters, and my grandma were all DG’s in the Beta Gamma chapter at the U!
5. Whether we’re at a date night, formal, sisterhood, or even just hanging out, we always have the best time. It’s so fun to be able to spend time with my sisters and get to know them better!
4. It has given me so many opportunities to grow and develop. I have matured so much more through DG and found where I truly belong and who I want to be.
3. I’ve met a new group of absolutely amazing girls, which is saying a lot cause I don’t generally get along with girls too well. My best friends are in DG and I can’t imagine what it would be like if I didn’t have them in my life.
2. We share an unbreakable bond that is like nothing else. Literally, from the second my pledge sisters and I met, we loved each other unconditionally and grew unbelievably close. They are my best friends and I love them more than life.
1. It’s given me a place to go when I need to escape from all the things going on in my life. The girls are all so understanding and loyal and they have seen me through a lot of tough times. They’ve made me feel very welcome and their arms are always open if I need a hug or someone to talk to.
It sounds so cliche, but I honestly don't know what I would do without DG. Rushing DG was the best decision I've ever made and not once have I regretted it. I would never trade my experiences in DG for anything in the world. ΔΓ ♥ ⚓
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