Tuesday, October 25, 2011

I need this dress for formal. Someone please tell me where to find it. All I know is it's not Betsey.
I can't wait for winter break so I can travel again. I'm in charge of choosing where our family goes :)
"So many words get lost. They leave the mouth and lose their courage, wandering aimlessly until they are swept into the gutter like dead leaves. On rainy days, you can hear their chorus rushing past: I was a beautiful girl, please don’t go, I too believe my body is made of glass, I’ve never loved anyone, I think of myself as funny, forgive me… There was a time when it wasn’t uncommon to use a piece of string to guide words that otherwise might falter on the way to their destinations. Shy people carried a little bunch of string in their pockets, but people considered loudmouths had no less need for it, since those used to being overheard by everyone were often at a loss for how to make themselves heard by someone. The physical distance between two people using a string was often small; sometimes the smaller the distance, the greater the need for the string. The practice of attaching cups to the ends of string came much later. Some say it is related to the irrepressible urge to press shells to our ears, to hear the still-surviving echo of the world’s first expression. Others say it was started by a man who held the end of a string that was unraveled across the ocean by a girl who left for America. When the world grew bigger, and there wasn’t enough string to keep the things people wanted to say from disappearing into the vastness, the telephone was invented. Sometimes no length of string is long enough to say the thing that needs to be said. In such cases all the string can do, in whatever its form, is conduct a person’s silence." — The History of Love, Nicole Krauss
I want to do this to someone's hair. Who wants to let me try the double braid?
Things are finally going my way for once. Fall break came with some of the best days I’ve had in a really long time. Running away to Laguna was exactly what I needed and helped me make a step in the right direction. I am finally moving on to something that I have a feeling will be much better for me; almost perfect, in fact. He never fails to make me smile, regardless of if I’m actually with him or just talking to him. He makes me feel important and special. I feel like he is genuinely interested in what’s going on with me and how I am and if I’m upset, he makes sure he at least puts in an effort to help make me happy again. We just spent the most amazing two days together visiting his parents. I’m surprised I’ve been able to open up to him so fast. I feel so comfortable around him, which is awesome, because it usually takes me a while to get to that point with anyone. I’m just really happy right now and I love it, because it’s been a while since I’ve felt like this. I really hope things stay this way though, because I feel like anytime I am finally happy again, things do a 180 and go back to being really bad. Bye bye single Kenzie :) 
So pretty. I want to see the Cherry Blossoms in Japan next spring.
I miss my pugs. I need a puppy.
This is the most beautiful child I've ever seen.
These kids are dressed so cute. My kids will have the best style.




Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway 




Wednesday, October 5, 2011

trust me.

To my lovely DG sisters,
I just wanted to write to you and let you know how much I truly appreciate each and every one of you. I know things are different in the house these days, but that doesn’t change how much I love all of you. DG has changed my life completely. I’m a completely different person than I was two years ago. I’ve grown up a lot and become a better person and that’s all thanks to the example you all set for me. I look up to all of you, even the younger girls. You are such great role models for me and the best friends I could ask for. You’ve all seen me at my best and my worst and I am so fortunate to have you in my life. This summer was the best and worst of my life. Things happened that I don’t know how I would’ve gotten through without you all there to pick me back up and I just wanted to thank you. In addition to be there for my bad moments, you were the ones creating the good memories. I know a lot of things have happened recently, but I don’t know what I’d do if I could no longer call one of you my sisters. We need to things back to how they were during pledgeship. I can’t remember a happier time in my life and DG has never been better than it was then. Everyone has things they need to work on, but I have faith in us and I know if we do, our sisterhood will grow even stronger and be unbreakable. Stick it out and I know this will all be worth it. I love you guys more than you can imagine. ITB <3